Start Somewhere

Thursday, June 9, 2016

I went back and forth on what to call this post.

"On feeling anxious & overwhelmed."

"Balancing."

"Everyone has to start somewhere."

"Allow yourself grace."

Do you ever feel like you have so much going on that you feel overwhelmed, like you don't know where to start, so you just don't altogether?

My word, that has been my life lately. I have been going in literally about 20 different directions with all sorts of places to be, people to see and commitments to keep. Bad, good, great and the ugly of life poking it's head in here and there.

There's being a good wife, daughter, sister, friend, granddaughter, cousin, niece, aunt, and employee, all while trying to maintain and be a better ME everyday on top of it.

I started going to the gym lately. Yes, I miss days but I am trying to go consistently and put forth the effort. I really am not one to try and boast about this of all things, so please do not take it as such. I bring it up because although my body has maybe not changed the way I had hoped it would right away, I have found this new thing that makes me happy. I feel stronger and more confident and if that is all I've gained, then I'd say I am doing pretty well. I find I feel remorseful after missing a day. I may hate that 4:00 am alarm (as does my Husband) but I've found nothing that beats starting the day off with a good sweat. (Ok, well maybe sleeping in and getting breakfast in bed or something, but come on.) I love the clarity it provides and how I feel when I leave, and for that matter, the rest of the day.

I had serious anxiety about joining a gym. It still makes me a little uncomfortable to be honest. Feelings like I don't know what I'm doing or I don't have the cutest gym clothes, or I'm not that strong. Or am I doing this right, are people watching me, or how does this machine even work? Maybe you can relate. But you know what I hear that little voice telling myself?

EVERYONE HAS TO START SOMEWHERE.

This echoes true in other aspects of life for me as well. With so many things pulling in me in opposite directions, I find myself feeling overwhelmed, anxious, and scattered. I try and make lists and keep track of my priories and various calendars but I can't do everything as hard as I try. I forget things. I loose track of time. It happens. I come home at night with ambitions of accomplishing X, Y, Z and then when I don't, I feel so guilty.

New Motto: Start somewhere.

Really, I am trying to allow myself grace. There's only so many hours in a day. Quit obsessing over  what you need to do and take action. But rather than doing ALL THE THINGS, do one. If there's time, do two or three. But just start somewhere.

Take each day as it comes and don't get so caught up in planning, worrying or dwelling on every little thing. Enjoy this moment and at the end of the day, feel good knowing you did your best!
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1 comment:

  1. This is so good. I feel this in so many areas of my life. Thanks for writing about it!

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